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Anticipation

November 27, 2012 — Leave a comment

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Right now, my kids are going crazy. Because we are aggravating them. We had our Christmas shopping done before Thanksgiving, and the day after T-Day we went out and bought a nice new tree, wrapped all the presents and put them under the tree. The very first thing Trinity asked was, “Can we open one present early?” “Nope” was the only answer she got.

She went to the calendar, started counting and realized that she would be staring at those gifts for over a month. Zoey doesn’t care as much, but she kisses her presents goodnight before going to bed.

What is it about anticipation? It’s maddening, but still often it’s a very sweet feeling – you know something good is coming, you may not know when, or maybe you do. And you’re so excited you can hardly wait! It’s going to be so good! Your heart is pounding, you’re out of breath, your mind is churning! Anticipation can be fun sometimes!

Sometimes, though, anticipation drives us crazy and just leaves us there. Anticipation can make a person bitter. That’s what happened to me.

I knew something good was coming, I didn’t know what or when, and it stopped being something I was looking forward to. It was taking too long. I was restless, impatient, so I stopped waiting. And the anticipation – the fun kind – ended and I got angry.

Anticipation is supposed to be a good thing – it’s supposed to be the waiting period between where we are or what we have and the awesome/wonderful thing that is to come. We are supposed to be excited every time we think of it, we are supposed to daydream, we are supposed to contemplate how different things will be when the time comes.

I knew God had something good for me, and I lost focus. I forgot that he is good. I forgot that he loves me, that he wants good things for me. I forgot who I was in him – and I became someone I wasn’t supposed to be.

I became angry, resentful, apathetic. I didn’t care what God had for me anymore. He wasn’t going to pony up, so I would get all I could out of life on my own. That plan never really took off, either. And then it got even worse. All because I forgot that I’m God’s kid, living in his kingdom already, and that the down payment of all that is to come has already been given, that I can live victorious and free regardless of my circumstance.

So I wallowed in anger, hate and self pity. I was a Scrooge, year round, until I began to be reminded of everything I had forgotten. I began to be encouraged, prayed over, loved by others who had no reason to love me. I began to heal from the past – the self imposed things and the imposed upon me things that had broken my spirit

Something I just heard today from Steven Furtick - sometimes we have to wait because God is preparing us for what he has prepared for us. Sometimes we are not ready to step into our destiny! Sometimes we need to grow, learn, trust, pray and over time become who God dreamed we would be – then he gives us what he has prepared for us.

And that is some sweet anticipation! I can’t wait! I’m like a kid at Christmas! My present is right there, staring me in the face – all wrapped up with loving care, with pretty paper and bows and when God says, “Ok it’s time” all the pretty wrapping in the world will not stand between me and what he has prepared for me, and what he has prepared me for.

It’s slow going right now though. I know some very specific things I need to work on. Other things I have a vague idea about. I’m getting there. But I know that the future God has for me is right there! My current thinking is I could probably step right into that destiny at any time. I think if I continue on my current path, It’ll happen and all of a sudden I’ll wonder, “what just happened?”

Psalm 27:13-14 says, “I am certain that I will see the Lord’s goodness in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and courageous. Wait for the Lord.” I know what’s coming, just not when or how – and I’m ok with that!

How about you? Have you lost that sense of wonder, of anticipation? These are some of the sweetest things in life – unless you get too impatient, unless you try to do what only God can do. You can’t force your way into destiny – it’s a gift that God will give you when you’re ready to receive it!

Ask a Stupid Question

July 2, 2012 — 5 Comments

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Have you ever heard someone say, “there’s no such thing as a stupid question?” They’ve never met me, have they? I am the king of stupid questions. I mostly do it on purpose, but sometimes a real doozy slips through, mostly because I’m not listening.

When I was in college, there was a store at the mall, a wonderful, glorious store called Everything’s $1. I would go and grab an ice cube tray and take it to the front (sometimes I would even stand in line) and then ask them to scan it since there was no bar code – “How much is this?” “It’s $1.” Take them a corkscrew “How much?” “$1.” I did that for a whole afternoon once, and kept getting the same answer.

In high school, my 10th grade history teacher was going on and on about the War of 1812. He talked for a good 40 minutes, then I raised my hand and asked, “When was this?”

Stupid questions. We like to think there aren’t any, and we tend to ask them anyway.

I asked God a question recently. A very specific question, and I got a very specific answer. I’ve been asking this same question for about 5 years now and have never gotten an answer before. This time I did, and I did not like the answer, so I became angry and whiney. It was kind of a stupid question anyway.

We want to know so much from God, and a lot of how he operates is not going to be revealed to us this side of eternity. Sometimes though, God will surprise us, and if your experience is anything like mine, we generally don’t like the answer we get.

God is not a Magic 8 Ball. In fact, there’s a whole segment of the population that thinks they are from the devil. Same with astrology, palm reading, tarot cards. We have questions but very little in the way of answers. Many times we just make it up as we go along since the answers aren’t forthcoming and end up in worse shape than we started.

As for me, I basically asked for a timeline on a certain thing, and instead of weeks or months the answer was years. YEARS. Can I fast track this? Can we skip some steps? How do I bypass some of that and still get to where I need to be?

I can’t. You can’t either. God has a timeline for you, a process for getting you from point “A” to point “Whatever.” It’s called “sanctification” and it’s all about your (and my) character. The very fact that I got mad at God’s answer is an indication that I am not ready to step into my destiny just yet. Instead of whining and complaining about the answer, I should have been thankful that there’s light at the end of this particular tunnel. I’m not ready.

The other part of the answer that should have encouraged me is that I’m on the right track. I need to keep doing the things I’m doing and I’ll get there – and again, my response to God’s encouragement was not consistent with someone of character.

Why do you need to know this? Well, part of my path is one of transparency, and part of it is of writing it down. I am instructed by God to share all this and I don’t know why. Well, I kinda know why. Many of you are struggling with the same thing – How long? What’s next? How do I do this? How do I get where I need to be? And every time I write something, several people let me know it’s just what they needed to hear.

I write what God puts in my heart and mind, and he blesses people. That’s where I’m at right now, and honestly, there’s nothing to complain about there.

I’m going to keep asking these stupid questions, because “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened. Or which one of you, if his son asks him for  bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a serpent? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!” (Matthew 7:7-11)

God loves it when we ask him things, when we seek him. He loves it when we depend on him for the answers. And he loves to give us what we need.

I needed an answer, one was given, and after much belly-aching, soul searching, sour attitudes and crying, I can live with it. Which gets me one step closer to his promise for me.

What about you? What are you seeking? What kinds of questions are you asking? What answers are you getting? With God, there is no stupid question. You might not like the answer, but that’s between you and him. And you better learn to love the answer because it is what is best for you.

No Doubt

May 3, 2012 — Leave a comment

 

Nope this is not about the band, although they are pretty cool. Doubt is that gray area between faith and unbelief.  I have had some serious doubts in my life over a variety of things and when those old feeling start creeping back in, I take some time to deal with it. I know what God wants from me, and I don’t have time to cater to those feeling – God has a plan for me, and I want to pursue that at all costs, regardless of how I feel.

Have you ever seen in pro sports where a referee asks for help because he didn’t have a good angle on the play?  A lot of times we are like that because we don’t have all the facts about what is going on or because we can’t see the big picture.

The result of this is sometimes doubt.  God recognized that this would happen. I Cor 13:12 says that we see a dim reality, but when Jesus comes, we will see clearly.  We can’t see or know all things, but God can, and we need to learn to trust him.  Our faith in him sometimes has to carry us through our doubts.

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