I really don’t like that Trinity chose to buy a recorder. Not my favorite instrument in the hands of a ten year old. Or maybe anybody. She could have chosen something cool like the cowbell, but no. It had to be a recorder.
So, for the past few days, morning and night, we’ve been regaled with her halting, squeaky attempts at Hot Cross Buns, Mary Had A Little Lamb, and tonight, a new classic, Frere Jacques.
I love Trinity dearly though, so I encourage her. To throw the thing in the ditch behind our house. Seriously though, I am very proud. That at least she’s good at math and reading.
Seriously, seriously though – she is trying really hard, and actually getting better at it. Will she be going to Juilliard one day? Not for music I don’t think. But she’s having fun doing it, and I could totally see her going to MIT one day and creating some kind of nano-tech warp drive and living on the moon. She is really just that smart.
Her attempts at the recorder remind me of my spiritual journey. You know we basically all start at the same place – newborns. And we are so excited about it, we are sometimes “squeaky” and our attempts at things such as public prayer, evangelism, and even personal devotional time may seem awkward. But, like Trinity is getting better with practise, so do we become better at being children of God.
For most people though, they stay in the newborn stage. They begin with excitement, and get a sense of the awkwardness and give up. They lack encouragement, they lack accountability, and give up before they get to the really good stuff.
I don’t want Trinity to give up! I love her and I love her excitement! So I will encourage her and tell her how proud I am. And I really, truly am proud of my beautiful little girl.
I want to encourage you, too. No matter where you are on your path, keep going! Don’t give up! It’s worth the struggle! Find someone who can walk along side of you and be a mentor and guide and teacher for you. Keep doing what the Lord has shown you is right, even if it feels weird. Becoming a Christian is a major shift for most people, and even if you’ve been a Christian for a long time, sometimes trying something new can feel weird, too.
Trust in the Lord, follow his leading and be what he has called you to be! Those feelings will pass, and you will learn to live in the destiny he has created for you!
Take a minute and think to yourself – what is God asking you to do? How has he gifted you to accomplish this task? Can you do it on your own? Pray that he would enable you to do all that he is asking you to do, trust him to do what he said he would do, then step out and do it! You’ll be changing your life, and the lives of those around you!