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Zen Bowling

October 11, 2012 — Leave a comment

bowlingI really stink at bowling. I always have. I do it about once a year and look and feel stupid the whole time.

Today, my unit at work had a team building outing. We ate some lunch, and went bowling. The first game did not go well for me. I didn’t even break 100. The second game was going the same way until the 10th frame. I got three strikes in the 10th and actually won!

The weird thing is, it was just a weird thing. I don’t know what happened, how it happened, why it happened. I just happened.

I got the ball, took a deep breath, and time stopped. I couldn’t hear the music playing, didn’t hear the voices of all the people around me. Before I released the ball I knew it would be a strike, and it was. Same for the second shot and the third. I just knew it was going to happen.

This same thing has happened just like this four other times in my life. I wrote about one here where I hit a bumblebee with an acorn. Once in the third grade during a baseball game (which I also was no good at) I hit a grand slam to win the game. Eight years ago I won an XBox 360 in a raffle, and the same thing happened about six months ago when I won a Wii.

I knew I was going to bowl three strikes. I knew I was going to hit the bumblebee. I knew I was going to hit a home run, and I knew I was going to win the raffle. It’s like time stopped during each of these events and I just knew.

What is that? Have any of you ever experienced anything like that?

I called it “zen bowling” today. Everyone with me agreed that something weird/special happened. I know it’s not zen – I don’t believe in that philosophy. But on the surface, it was a very peaceful experience where I had an insight, ability or intuition that I normally don’t have. Which, if you think about it, is actually kinda zen.

Do you think the Holy Spirit can give a person this kind of insight or ability? Do you think in each of these situations of weirdness, I was given something I don’t normally have so that I could do something I don’t normally do? Is this what being filled with the Spirit is all about? Or did I just get lucky and feel really good about it?

A big question is, why would God care if I did these things? Was he glorified in each of them? I wasn’t thinking about God, I know that for sure. I was thinking how crazy it was. If I give God the credit for these things will they happen more often?

So many questions. You know what I’m talking about, right? Or are we just in the Matrix?

Comment below if you have answers or similar experiences!

Ask a Stupid Question

July 2, 2012 — 5 Comments

Irritated help desk worker

Have you ever heard someone say, “there’s no such thing as a stupid question?” They’ve never met me, have they? I am the king of stupid questions. I mostly do it on purpose, but sometimes a real doozy slips through, mostly because I’m not listening.

When I was in college, there was a store at the mall, a wonderful, glorious store called Everything’s $1. I would go and grab an ice cube tray and take it to the front (sometimes I would even stand in line) and then ask them to scan it since there was no bar code – “How much is this?” “It’s $1.” Take them a corkscrew “How much?” “$1.” I did that for a whole afternoon once, and kept getting the same answer.

In high school, my 10th grade history teacher was going on and on about the War of 1812. He talked for a good 40 minutes, then I raised my hand and asked, “When was this?”

Stupid questions. We like to think there aren’t any, and we tend to ask them anyway.

I asked God a question recently. A very specific question, and I got a very specific answer. I’ve been asking this same question for about 5 years now and have never gotten an answer before. This time I did, and I did not like the answer, so I became angry and whiney. It was kind of a stupid question anyway.

We want to know so much from God, and a lot of how he operates is not going to be revealed to us this side of eternity. Sometimes though, God will surprise us, and if your experience is anything like mine, we generally don’t like the answer we get.

God is not a Magic 8 Ball. In fact, there’s a whole segment of the population that thinks they are from the devil. Same with astrology, palm reading, tarot cards. We have questions but very little in the way of answers. Many times we just make it up as we go along since the answers aren’t forthcoming and end up in worse shape than we started.

As for me, I basically asked for a timeline on a certain thing, and instead of weeks or months the answer was years. YEARS. Can I fast track this? Can we skip some steps? How do I bypass some of that and still get to where I need to be?

I can’t. You can’t either. God has a timeline for you, a process for getting you from point “A” to point “Whatever.” It’s called “sanctification” and it’s all about your (and my) character. The very fact that I got mad at God’s answer is an indication that I am not ready to step into my destiny just yet. Instead of whining and complaining about the answer, I should have been thankful that there’s light at the end of this particular tunnel. I’m not ready.

The other part of the answer that should have encouraged me is that I’m on the right track. I need to keep doing the things I’m doing and I’ll get there – and again, my response to God’s encouragement was not consistent with someone of character.

Why do you need to know this? Well, part of my path is one of transparency, and part of it is of writing it down. I am instructed by God to share all this and I don’t know why. Well, I kinda know why. Many of you are struggling with the same thing – How long? What’s next? How do I do this? How do I get where I need to be? And every time I write something, several people let me know it’s just what they needed to hear.

I write what God puts in my heart and mind, and he blesses people. That’s where I’m at right now, and honestly, there’s nothing to complain about there.

I’m going to keep asking these stupid questions, because “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened. Or which one of you, if his son asks him for  bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a serpent? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!” (Matthew 7:7-11)

God loves it when we ask him things, when we seek him. He loves it when we depend on him for the answers. And he loves to give us what we need.

I needed an answer, one was given, and after much belly-aching, soul searching, sour attitudes and crying, I can live with it. Which gets me one step closer to his promise for me.

What about you? What are you seeking? What kinds of questions are you asking? What answers are you getting? With God, there is no stupid question. You might not like the answer, but that’s between you and him. And you better learn to love the answer because it is what is best for you.